Emotional cleansing of the money network.
Soon I will go back to the town again, and soon after that I will be bankrupt. Then I have to start from zero. Maybe indeed it is a normal procedure, but when I already have a family, as she said, it is not such a good idea to have such financial high-risks all the time.
Once I was used to poker and played around with a bit, went pro for 2 years but never taking it too seriously. The thing with poker is, is that it is very individualistic and competitive. But I enjoy being around a family that I love very much.
I think that the money network could be less fierce, I think that it would be very nice if I could be rich without having to fight for it all the time.
Wouldn't it be awesome if I could just get paid for being together with the children as a teacher? This is indeed what I could get and it will probably continue in September, but so far I need to somehow manage.
All of my money will go to training courses and yoga and things like that, and very soon I will discover myself poor again.
Where did I get the money last time? From piano place, 60 eur/week or the teacher's salary, minimum wage, about 350 euros/month.
When our rent is 50 eur + 10 eur electricity and I pay half of it, it is 30 euros. And the food is like what, less than 100 euros a month.
So I am indeed able to survive.
But now in the summer I have lot of outgoings, -210 euros in cash for teacher training courses and yoga. And no income or wage, the piano place I also don't know, maybe too much busy in summer and time to move somewhere else. But where?
I don't see an option, how could I get paid for my real work? Maybe it does not matter. I can simply continue doing it and living a low-end life financially, giving out everything towards a loving friendship and family.
But then there's this integration thing, many people still rich and prices of bicycles very high, and making me sad, never able to afford them. Also I cannot afford a place to live in.
It is a little bit stupid.
pühapäev, 26. juuni 2016
exploring how to be unique and original
In a way you are doing the correct thing, the female wants to be explored, it yearns for it. But during this explorations, remember to stay true to yourself - how would your true self-expression look like?
I wouldn't actually say that repetition is a bad thing, not at all. But sometimes I feel that something is missing, perhaps a joy for adventure, the courage to offer something new and untried?
Hymn for individuality in a greater sense, in a paradoxical way, as it very often might turn out, the more true and unique and original you are to yourself, the more accepted you will be in the community? This is what I believe, but atm also testing it out.
Not sure, but the results so far have been awesome.
I wouldn't actually say that repetition is a bad thing, not at all. But sometimes I feel that something is missing, perhaps a joy for adventure, the courage to offer something new and untried?
Hymn for individuality in a greater sense, in a paradoxical way, as it very often might turn out, the more true and unique and original you are to yourself, the more accepted you will be in the community? This is what I believe, but atm also testing it out.
Not sure, but the results so far have been awesome.
laupäev, 25. juuni 2016
about the spontaneous flow of things that I truly love and enjoy
I think that they use time to pre-plan things so that they would be in nice and neat order, so that people would know for certain what will happen next. I was very surprised when I see this sign at our hallway that they're gonna have a local meeting in September about the apartments of this house.
For me it is simply weird to always pre-plan so little things for so long. In a way it is a little bit disgusting, because it kills the real spontaneous life-flow of things.
Let's say a young couple meets in a forest and has a good time. Then, someone might come and say: hey, you need to work at this field in Germany and do a hard work for the next 500 years.
Isn't it a bit boring.
I think that the true sexuality or life force or spontaneous energy flow wants to discover itself in a more natural way. It knows itself, what it is doing. There is no need to somehow address your sexuality in a hard-work labour way, for me it kinda ruins the love inside this beautiful thing.
I was also thinking that in order to connect with the money and car network, I need to go quite low in sexuality. For example, in the car network there is not much unique self-expression or creativity, it's copy reproduction and not a true smile of a beautiful loving woman.
What would you like to drive the most, may I ask?
Sometimes, no, very often I do not understand the things around me or why people behave in certain ways, because the things are created in a sexual way that is unknown to me. For example, what kind of sexual force would create a plastic bag and a car and Soviet houses?
Sometimes it is simply so weird for me to understand this.
For me it is simply weird to always pre-plan so little things for so long. In a way it is a little bit disgusting, because it kills the real spontaneous life-flow of things.
Let's say a young couple meets in a forest and has a good time. Then, someone might come and say: hey, you need to work at this field in Germany and do a hard work for the next 500 years.
Isn't it a bit boring.
I think that the true sexuality or life force or spontaneous energy flow wants to discover itself in a more natural way. It knows itself, what it is doing. There is no need to somehow address your sexuality in a hard-work labour way, for me it kinda ruins the love inside this beautiful thing.
I was also thinking that in order to connect with the money and car network, I need to go quite low in sexuality. For example, in the car network there is not much unique self-expression or creativity, it's copy reproduction and not a true smile of a beautiful loving woman.
What would you like to drive the most, may I ask?
Sometimes, no, very often I do not understand the things around me or why people behave in certain ways, because the things are created in a sexual way that is unknown to me. For example, what kind of sexual force would create a plastic bag and a car and Soviet houses?
Sometimes it is simply so weird for me to understand this.
thinking-thinking. a machine to marry a person
decoding, recoding, incoding and encoding.
How do you approach a person?
Check:
if functions:
{
value (smile) = true
love emission from the heart = inconstant
hot and sexy legs = function: walk-on.
}
We need 4 wheels in these areas. Dogs have 4 legs and we now need 4 wheels.
Humans have 2 legs, no wheels. A bicycle. Bicycle 2 has 2 wheels.
One rides an unicycle.
Return to the sorcery, sorry, source.
My hands and legs are parts of my body. Take-off = false.
Hold your ground. Don't let others in. This is my private space and my private parts, even if it is a building. No, I will not marry a skyscraper or a chimney. We need something more gentle.
How to f* with a red big chimney. Who should do it? You go! No, not me. You go! No, I don't want to. It is impossible.
Re-turn. Two triangles on top of each other, OR a bi. wheel. Soundcluster.com
Distance = 400
Power level = -8
Last attempt to take off (TAKE IT OFF ME!) = June, 2854
What time do u ppl use round here
what lifespan
how long does your core engine work
..
a poem
How do you approach a person?
Check:
if functions:
{
value (smile) = true
love emission from the heart = inconstant
hot and sexy legs = function: walk-on.
}
We need 4 wheels in these areas. Dogs have 4 legs and we now need 4 wheels.
Humans have 2 legs, no wheels. A bicycle. Bicycle 2 has 2 wheels.
One rides an unicycle.
Return to the sorcery, sorry, source.
My hands and legs are parts of my body. Take-off = false.
Hold your ground. Don't let others in. This is my private space and my private parts, even if it is a building. No, I will not marry a skyscraper or a chimney. We need something more gentle.
How to f* with a red big chimney. Who should do it? You go! No, not me. You go! No, I don't want to. It is impossible.
Re-turn. Two triangles on top of each other, OR a bi. wheel. Soundcluster.com
Distance = 400
Power level = -8
Last attempt to take off (TAKE IT OFF ME!) = June, 2854
What time do u ppl use round here
what lifespan
how long does your core engine work
..
a poem
uudiseid Eestist
Peaasi, et me selle riigiaparaadi jälle tööle saaks. Lennundusfirma ei tohi järsku kahjumisse jääda, muidu on halvasti. Autotööstus ja välisettevõtetest oleneb kodu meie tulu.
Tähtis on esmajärjekorras trükkida hulk teksti. Erinevates väljaannetes, et reprodutseerida oma liigi ja rahvuse jätkusuutlikkust. Peaasi, et idast ei rändaks mõnda rahvust siia liiga kiiresti sisse ja et kohalikud neil siis ees ei oleks.
Peaasi, et liikluseksamid saaksid tehtud. Narkojoobes ja purjus ei tohi rooli minna. Enim hukkus liiklusõnnetustes, sestap, mis teha. Kuhu nad sõidavad? Maa südamesse vist.
Tuleb küsida luba, enne kui autorooli istuda. Kes pakub linnas toitu? Kuidas me siia sattusime ja kuhu me tahame jõuda? Laevaühendus mandri ja saarte vahel katkes.
Oleme võimekad ja meie rahvussportlased kaitsesid taaskord meie riiki. Hädaoht läks seekord jälle mööda. Naised ja lapsed jõudsid elusate ja tervetena tagasi perede juurde.
Tähtis on esmajärjekorras trükkida hulk teksti. Erinevates väljaannetes, et reprodutseerida oma liigi ja rahvuse jätkusuutlikkust. Peaasi, et idast ei rändaks mõnda rahvust siia liiga kiiresti sisse ja et kohalikud neil siis ees ei oleks.
Peaasi, et liikluseksamid saaksid tehtud. Narkojoobes ja purjus ei tohi rooli minna. Enim hukkus liiklusõnnetustes, sestap, mis teha. Kuhu nad sõidavad? Maa südamesse vist.
Tuleb küsida luba, enne kui autorooli istuda. Kes pakub linnas toitu? Kuidas me siia sattusime ja kuhu me tahame jõuda? Laevaühendus mandri ja saarte vahel katkes.
Oleme võimekad ja meie rahvussportlased kaitsesid taaskord meie riiki. Hädaoht läks seekord jälle mööda. Naised ja lapsed jõudsid elusate ja tervetena tagasi perede juurde.
some weird thoughts that one could consider worthwhile to remember
How can:
Math be accepted by.....
For me, intelligence is always sexy in a way. It knows what to do to achieve certain results. However, what are the true results to be sought out?
1) return to the core feeling of the body:
- see if a sense of yours does respond to how you wish that things REALLY were
I don't know if this helps but many broken areas of thios code need sm srious helping I think and feel.
2) They always want me to help them with MATH and IT. What is it? The governments always seek help with technology, math and IT:
what is the problem then?
- answer: the problem must be then in the male area of our thinking patterns that needs to be readjusted to teh new environment?
Get your thinking claire and stairght;
practice medicine meditation
Math be accepted by.....
For me, intelligence is always sexy in a way. It knows what to do to achieve certain results. However, what are the true results to be sought out?
1) return to the core feeling of the body:
- see if a sense of yours does respond to how you wish that things REALLY were
I don't know if this helps but many broken areas of thios code need sm srious helping I think and feel.
2) They always want me to help them with MATH and IT. What is it? The governments always seek help with technology, math and IT:
what is the problem then?
- answer: the problem must be then in the male area of our thinking patterns that needs to be readjusted to teh new environment?
Get your thinking claire and stairght;
practice medi
continuation with the damaged code
If:
(number of population required to do certain task >= 8)
ask permission from:
a) your mother
b) divine mother
c) false
The libraries of the math. How to enter sacred areas without damaging them.
1) We need to be very precise.
2) We need to keep hidden.
3) Repeating: They shud not notice.
Preblan:
find out:
(what is wrong with the cue? what is cue anyway??
c) see the results of the inner tragedies)
if:
(girls come = true)
do:
{BIG TASK 1}
(present them the broken code;
discover the invalid aspects of chairs;
hide that we are from stars;
pretend to be local Estonians.)
Also, how to do this?
How to:
a) know if we axxxeopt
answer:
you notice it when she smiles gently to you and locates the lips of yours with her INDEX finger.
(number of population required to do certain task >= 8)
ask permission from:
a) your mother
b) divine mother
c) false
The libraries of the math. How to enter sacred areas without damaging them.
1) We need to be very precise.
2) We need to keep hidden.
3) Repeating: They shud not notice.
Preblan:
find out:
(what is wrong with the cue? what is cue anyway??
c) see the results of the inner tragedies)
if:
(girls come = true)
do:
{BIG TASK 1}
(present them the broken code;
discover the invalid aspects of chairs;
hide that we are from stars;
pretend to be local Estonians.)
Also, how to do this?
How to:
a) know if we axxxeopt
answer:
you notice it when she smiles gently to you and locates the lips of yours with her INDEX finger.
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