about music and experience

I couldn't help but to follow the music, the feelings inside me grew stronger to a such degree that I yearned for it, I yearned to feel myself on a deep soul level. And how did I get this connection? When I felt a strong emotion, something that really needed instant clarification, I would sit down with the piano and play it out, play it out, my friend, and the notes would start to sing a tune from the tense aspect of me, and it would go like this: [example code, enter a music piece of impro]

I would start to dance with this and I could go really far with it. I would have such an obsession to singing, or these deep unhealed aspects of the true soul, from the heart, from other, deeper and more peaceful levels of being... I would take the guitar and play two notes and it would calm down the entire atmosphere around me, or the space around me, let's say 10 meters to each side.

When you see it, you know it, and it will take you where you are, and it will show you. I had to realise very fast that I am who I am and put it into practice to the fullest. Looking back, I see now that there were also more ancient things speaking through these events, but when doing this, you need to be on such a level of acceptance, that you do an extraordinary mindblowing thing and then instantly forget about it, because another task needs to be done from a completely different anger (I wanted to say angel, sorry, no, angle.)

Let's say that there are these beings who need you to understand some core aspects of their reality very fast, and even if it is new to you, you need to cooperate and accept what you are being told and integrate it into your practice.

I could also describe it as a constant travel between different groups and small cosy realities, each group giving some new piece of information. I have forgotten a lot already I suspect, but things turned out to be a little bit different anyway...