more from Finland, 2013

So, moving together with this hippie woman, we hit the road the next day. I had pretty much never hitch-hiked before and I felt that it would not work, I could not get in to the hitch-hiking network because my level of pride was too high, I was too proud to ask the cars to stop, kind of a kingly-feeling, and I also did not want to disturb the natural flow of the cars.

But she was so merry and already an experienced hitch-hiker. It was a cold winter day and I still felt that I was missing Emmi and in love with her.

So, travelling together with this hipi woman towards South Finland, we found ourselves waiting for hours at the roadside. It was very cold, like -20 degrees C or something. Then we decided to take a pause and we went to a local mall where there was also Hesburger.

We eat some food and warm up and talk happily to each other. Then we went out again, but no luck. Then we came back and she started to ask truck drivers for ride, but no luck. Then there was a woman with a car coming to shop in the mall, and they start to talk with each other with my companion and she gives her 20 € for the taxi to take us to the train station.

We then went with the train and it was expensive, but I think I paid for it, maybe even like 100 € or something. We then went to her place 200 km from Helsinki, and you know what was funny?

There was this bus going to the Swedish local hippie area and the driver was an Estonian woman! So I told her "Head õhtut," when I left the bus, having previously heard her talking in Estonian to the mobile phone.

We then walked together with Stella Sandström towards her place, and the night was very dark and magical, like another dreamy dimension.

We went in and I was getting a little bit scared, maybe she wanted to sleep with me or something, but I didn't want to. But I also didn't want to refuse her, you know, she was not looking standard and was kind of this what normal society would consider "older, a bit ugly".

I really liked her character and uniqueness, but didn't want to sleep with her nonetheless. So I was already thinking how to escape this if something would happen, when we entered her apartment together.

But it turned out that she was a really great healer, very allowing and ok with me. When I went to the sleeping room, she wanted to lie down together and hug and I was ok with this.

But then I got very sick, I mean, I had seen a warning sign in the hallway, that something was about to happen. Again I get this huge reality open-shifts, this time a lot in my brain area. I was then laying down and telling her sorry that I got sick and couldn't spend much time with her. She was very ok with it though and understood and was amazed about the state of consciousness that I soon entered.

First I was in the room alone feeling sick and she had this Finnish folk song playing from the radio, this helped me. Then when I got enough strength to get up again, she was in the kitchen and making a special kind of food for me. She was a hippie and had been dumpster-diving. So she mixed this kind of ingredients and there was salmon fish and old eggs I think and old kind of fruits or vegetables, some a bit rotten before cooking.

It was like a special meal, designed especially for me, she had such a great intuition. When I entered the kitchen I was in such a state of extreme awareness for some reason, that I was very sharp-conscious of my every move, something had suddenly changed fast within my brain.

So I eat this food and it was very good and soon I integrated this kind of brain shifts - some kind of polarities coming together and the extension of the energy field around my head and above forehead.